Trust her

Always in reach,

only an arms length away,

never stray, never sway

but there's nothing left to teach.

suddenly, the path gets wider,

until a fork in the road is reached,

overgrown and untraveled, the path breached,

she must start to walk with no one beside her.

Drawing the map as she goes,

trust and faith directly lead to hope,

as a speck in the distance, it gets harder to cope,

eventually your world won't be all she knows.

Unimpressionable, only she holds the powers.

Eighteen years, you feel weak once so strong,

but now only she can decide right from wrong

through the sunshine, storms and scattered rain showers.

Letting her slide through your grip,

she's hours away, venturing into the rough.

Watching with worry from afar has got to be tough,

you just need to trust that your lessons wont slip.

She's alone in the world, unsheltered from the cold

sit back, relax, and watch her story unfold.

Stopping to Smell the Roses

Once open to the world

Now sealed in a box

Losing my grip on reality

I stop.

Realizing my relapse

Back into the cave

Action must be taken

I run.

Escaping the binds of time

Racing against the clock

My home blazing behind me

I brake.

What I need is not speed

As I prepare to go.

I need to face this world

Devotedly and slow.

The World Should Match For A Day

Yesterday, for the first time ever, I played a game of croquet at a croquet tournament. Let me tell you, this game is highly underrated. At first glance, croquet seems to be a boring game for stuck up people. Turns out, it is full of strategy, teamwork and skill. Partners must work together to block the opposing team and get their ball through the wicket first. It's kinda like mini-golf on grass but more intense. I learned that croquet is not a joke, one team wore suspenders had custom mallets and a determined look that said 'I came to win and don't mess around.' Not only is the game fun, but everyone at the tournament dresses in white. I really liked getting to the field and seeing everyone lookin' classy in white. I wish sometimes the whole world would match, I felt very unified with everyone.

Other things that are highly underrated:

1. E-Z pass- why wouldn't you have one?

2. Board games- The word "bored" tends to turn people away and they don't know what they are missing.

3. Lifetime movies- People make fun of them but I can easily spend an afternoon glued to the TV watching lifetime.

4. Saving Bonds- just because you can't use it right away doesn't mean it's a bad gift.

5. Wearing scary costumes on Halloween- That's what the holiday is about right? Not how sleazy a costume can be.

6. Nitrogen- the air is mainly composed of it. Why do we say we need oxygen when we need air?

Time is Ticking

To add onto Kim's graduation theme, I wanted to share my concern with the lack of time from now until college. I have so much left to do and experience this summer, but I'm not sure how to fit all of it in. My first instinct was to live it up and party with my friends. This is the last time I will see many of them for a long time, so I need to get all of the fun and good times in. Then another idea came to me. I'm broke. I need some money for college so I decided to ditch my friends and make some ca$h. Which working is also important, but then I miss all the fun. Then also add in my family. I will be leaving them too and I need to spend time with them. And I have to have a graduation party. And I have to pack for school. And I have to go to orientation. And do a million other things in just these few short months. I'm not sure how it's going to work and so far I have just been flying by the seat of my pants, but I feel like a more concrete plan may be necessary. Who knows what I will do, all I know is that I need to do it fast.

Why Am I Not Crying?

I am completely done with high school. Although, it hasn't hit me yet. Graduation day always seemed unreachable. Don't get me wrong, I knew I was going to pass but it was always too far to grasp. Since freshman year, I have been dreaming day when I would get my diploma and well, I can tell you it wasn't what I thought it would be.

Graduation day should have been a whirlwind of emotions but instead I hardly felt anything. I didn't cry or even tear up for that matter. I walked across the stage, got my diploma and that was it. Graduation should be emotional, but why wasn't it for me? It just felt unreal. I kinda feel like I missed it. Like I just watched graduation, rather than been a part of it. Two hours of my life to conclude twelve years of schooling and I feel nothing. Looking back now, I realize that's the last time I am going to see most of those people. People I have shared classes with, laughter with, memories with and grown up seeing almost daily. But, I mean there is a reason they won't be in my future, right? Is that why I wasn't upset? Maybe, I am just really really ready for college. But that doesn't seem to explain the lack of emotion and feeling. How long will it take me to realize that this is it, it's over and I am moving forward with my life?