you are never alone

For as long as i can remember i have had problems. Specifically, relevant to this blog post, is finger nail/skin issues. I clip my nails as short as possible. I enjoy it. It is an addiction. I like the way it looks and feels even though it hurts a lot as well. There is a certain satisfaction you get while you do it that just makes it enjoyable. The more you do it, the shorter and shorter you can get it, gross i know. My fingers look horrible. Disgusting really. There is always hang nails and loose skin. I can't handle it so i am always clipping them. I clip not only the nails but the skin around them too. Not just the hang nails either, all the skin. I lose track of time when i do it. I don't even notice when I start, it is subconscious and once you start they are never perfect and the skin is always uneven so there is always an opportunity to keep going and you just never stop. My fingers ooze blood a lot when i go too deep then I have to wrap band aids around all my fingers. I end up hurting myself and I can't touch things in a certain way or else it feels funny right after. They look the worst when they are wet and that is one of the main times I will do it. I was just thinking about this and i thought what a weird problem i must be a strange girl. welcome to the internet and google. turns out this problem is completely normal! i am normal! weeee! well normal as in apparently a lot of people do this. i just read all the forums about it. hahahahaha.

"Is it true that finger biting can lead to insanity? So many people have told me you go crazy but Idk what to believe." -skinpick.com (don't go there, it is nasty)

I would post more of what people said but it is truly disturbing. Talking about how rewarding the big chunks of skin are over the little tidbits.....no idea what they are talking about.......okay. wow.

In Conclusion, I have OCD Compulsive Skin Picking (Dermatillomania). cool! i have never had anything like this before. this is so awesome! i am going to tell all my friends! maybe i will post it as my status right now! yay! and i am not alone. you are never alone. hey guys remember that